Why the guilt?

For my friends birthday this year we met up at a local rib fest. I was right in the middle of my Whole30 journey and had it in my head what I would eat while I was there. I should have had a snack or even ate dinner at home but I wanted to be with my friends for supper so I waited. The year prior I had seen people wandering around with turkey legs that appeared to be smoked with some seasoning on them. I had it in my mind that this is what I was going to get.. no sugary BBQ sauces for this gal! My friends and I were off to find the Turkey leg vendor and once I opened my take out container I was shocked to see this BBQ sauce smothered turkey leg staring at me. I found myself feeling upset. I was starving and everyone around me was enjoying all the things that I couldn’t. At first I tried to scrape off and pick around the sauce but I eventually just gave up and ate as much as I could. Something happened to me at that moment.. I felt an extreme sense of guilt and was disappointed in myself.

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I know it seems a little silly but for me it felt like a huge fail. I was doing so well and was on plan 100% and here it was.. in this moment with a turkey leg I felt defeated. It took me awhile to realize that this is going to be my reality when it comes to food. It may not be the issue with sugar but something else next time. I just need to learn to not be so hard on myself and keep moving forward. One delicious turkey leg smothered in BBQ sauce should not be the thing that defeats me.

This journey has taught me a lot about myself, my relationship with food and how it affects my every day life. So many people feel trapped by food, like they have no control over their choices. I can tell you that I am defiantly an emotional and stress eater and if you knew me outside of internet land you would know exactly why. Over the last few months I have realized that as much as I want to lose weight that isn’t the motivating factor of this journey. It is actually learning how to live a less stressful life so that I can be a happier, healthier person in all aspects.

~Jennifer

I did it! Whole 30 complete

Hello everyone!

So I did it! (whoop whoo!). I completed the Whole30.. well sorta.

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Let me explain the “sorta”. After you have completed your 30 days of eliminating added sugars,alcohol,dairy,grains and legumes you are to reintroduce each category of foods one at a time. I already know that gluten and dairy give me the most troubles so I have decided to keep to a gluten free and dairy light diet. I love me some cheese so I don’t think I could survive without it from time to time.

You are probably wondering if I ever caved.. did I slip up? Well before last weekend my answer would be absolutely NOT.. NEVER! However, last weekend was my brother in laws wedding, it was quite a far drive and consisted of sleeping in a cottage one night and a tent the other. Being at the cottage wasn’t bad because we had a fridge and stove so eating on program was easy. The next day was the wedding and I didn’t have much of a choice, I either ate or I starved. Did I go all bananas and gorge myself? No! Did I enjoy a couple of drinks during the celebrations? yes.. and I had a headache only an hour after consuming them and I felt horrid.

Other than the wedding I was able to stay on plan. I will not beat myself up over having a couple drinks and a couple little squares of desert. I need to be able to control my eating habits for the long run. I am a very social person and it just isn’t realistic that I will NEVER have a glass of wine again. Learning to control my portions and make better food choices is always going to be a struggle. This is just my reality.

What do I do now? Well I am going to continue to eat the Whole30 way. I don’t miss all the sugary snacks,the grains or legumes so they will be easy to keep out of my meals. I will continue on my journey to my best self and I will continue to blog about it here so you can all share in my struggles and my triumphs.

In 30 days I was able to:

Kick my sugar cravings
Sleep better
Improve my moods
Learn to experiment in the kitchen
Lose 11 pounds
Feel more confident in myself

If you are considering starting down the road of a healthier lifestyle I would 100% suggest you start with Whole30. If you haven’t seen my “Helpful Links” post you can check it out here.

~Jenn

Whole30-The halfway mark

Yesterday officially marked 15 days on the Whole30 program. I must say I LOVE this way of eating! I have never once felt hungry or deprived like I thought I would. My meals are full of healthy ingredients and I have not fallen off the program once (which is HUGE for me).

This is what I have noticed in the first half of my Whole30 journey.

  1. No more stomach aches! I use to wake up every day feeling just crummy. I felt like I had something stuck in the pit of my stomach constantly before starting this.
  2. My mood is better! Those who know me outside of internet land know how stressful my day to day life is. I will admit I don’t handle stress well at times. Since being on this program though I have noticed that I am not as snippy and let things go easier. This is an awesome “side effect”, nobody wants to feel annoyed all day long.
  3. Refined sugar..alcohol.. who needs it? Not this girl!  Although I have had moments where I was really craving ice cream (it was HOT out!) or times when I would be BBQ’ing and find myself daydreaming of sipping on a nice cold cider, I haven’t missed sugar much.
  4. Things don’t fit!  My gym pants for example don’t fit me anymore. Having to pull them up every 5 seconds isn’t very fun.
  5. Things DO fit! Today I slipped into a pair of shorts that I have not been able to wear in almost 2 years. SCORE.
  6. Healthy food doesn’t have to be boring or bland! I have loved every single dishes we have made since starting this and have never felt deprived or yumminess.

Check out a few of my favourite dishes from the last 5 days. You will notice that many of them are breakfast and usually consist of eggs,meat and fruit. I use to skip breakfast a lot (I know shame on me!) but I have learned it is really one of my favourite meals of the day.

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If you want to learn how to make the Butter Chicken seen above click HERE for the recipe!

~Jenn